Cold Sad Day

"What we have once enjoyed we can never lose.
All that we love deeply becomes a part of us."
- Helen Keller

Today we say goodbye to my Great Aunt Lyn. I couldn't find anyone to sit with the kids so I am missing most of the service until Maris is in school... I feel terrible about it... I just know that Jackson wouldn't stay quiet for that long - or still...- so we will be meeting everyone at the cemetery. It is 6 degrees out so we will be bundling up. We resume our regular school schedule today and Maris has been asking to go back since her winter break started so I don't want to pull her out today... I hate her missing school.
Last night I attended the wake solo since Jim stayed home with the kids. Under happier circumstances, it would have been nicer... but it was still great to see family that I really don't ever get to unless there is a life event... one perk of being a product of divorce is the amounts of family you gain as your family grows... I always feel so welcome with my stepdad's family - it feels weird saying that.... my family. Blood isn't the only thing that makes a family... but I am rambling now...
well... off we go.